Friday, August 18, 2017

Thanks Hank






















the squirrels become playful in September,
running to and fro,
chasing each other up and down trees
and telephone poles,
it makes me wonder what they know
that I don’t,
they drive Petey,
my Jack Russell terrier bonkers,
he whines and pulls at his leash,
dying to sink his sharp little teeth
into fresh killed squirrel hide;
life is easy in September;
I have been recovering from spinal surgery
for almost two months now,
I’ve learned if I sit very still,
the pain running down my leg isn’t so bad,
I thought the pain would be gone by now
but I guess it is not to be,
sometimes I think it is for the best,
we need a little pain in life
to keep it all in perspective,
a gentle reminder,
a little thorn in the flesh
as the apostle Paul would say;
I picked up another Bukowski book the other day,
it was the first time in years,
I read one called ’35 seconds’ in the store
and it made me laugh out loud,
so I bought it;
“and that’s how
I hurt my
arm” – 35 Seconds, Charles Bukowski
I guess you had to be there
to really get it,
he truly was a literary genius,
despite what the main stream
poetry world might think,
you have to read him very closely
to understand the depth of his pain,
and you have to read him even closer
to grasp the inner humor
that carried him through it;
most never get that close;
for most it is more
than they can bear,
they want their poetry
just like they want their life,
clean and sterile,
full of fantasy and fluff,
fresh from the minds
of those who never venture
outside their keyboards,
with freshly printed MFA degrees
hanging on the ‘studio’ wall,
minimizing and dismissing
anything that is uncomfortable
or real, calling it sloppy,
searching for technical and grammatical
correctness within words that are
empty and dead,
of course they don’t see it this way,
they would tell you just the opposite,
but their words give them away;
thank goodness he lived it for us
so we wouldn’t have to;
as I read him,
I wondered if he ever got the chance
to know the Lord,
not the one pushed by religion
or other man-made institutions,
but the real One,
the One who heals,
the One who saves,
the One who forgives,
the One who softly whispers
in the middle of the night:
“Don’t be afraid, just believe.”
the friend who sticks closer
than a brother,
my King,
my Everything;
I feel I know him well enough,
Bukowski that is,
that if he ever had the opportunity
like I did,
he would have seen the truth,
he would have understood the message,
his eyes would have been blind no more;
but I guess I’ll never know;
I think about how nice it would be
when I finally do enter the world
prepared for those who belong to the Lord
if I saw him there,
his dead pan, unassuming face,
quietly watching,
silently observing,
finally at peace;
completely healed;
how great it would be
if I could thank him
for exploring the parts
of the darkness I never could,
the parts that I never would
have survived,
the parts that would have destroyed me
forever,
then for writing it all down
so I didn’t have to;
for helping me along this journey
when no one else would;
“thanks Hank.”
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