being wrong

today is the day,

it is not what was expected,

but then changes seldom are,

what you thought

was going to be easy,

turns out to be

only the beginning,

it is what comes next

that puts the ball in the pit

of your gut,

becoming so hard

it squeezes the life

right out of you;

I know I am wrong,

so very wrong,

I have been wrong

my entire life,

but I don’t know how to stop

being wrong;

I never have;

and you wonder

what now?

what will be destroyed

next?

it’s hard,

when people stop believing

in you;

particularly

when you know

they should.