Backup

My computer crashed today,
everything I had written
for the last 4 months was lost,
no cd or floppy,
no backup,
it was simply gone;

forever.

It’s not like I can recreate it,
this stuff doesn’t work like that,
it comes and it goes,
and when it’s gone
it is gone,
never to return.

I felt like I had lost a child,
something precious and dear,
but even when you lose a child,
eventually you have to move on,
life is like that,
here today,
gone tomorrow;

like a crashed computer;

moments piled upon moments,
some good,
some bad,
some precious,
some unremarkable,
coming and going
with the blink of an eye,
yet every moment sacred,
every moment uniquely yours;

never to return again.

I prayed to the Lord,
He gave me peace,
He made me remember
what is truly important,
that it’s not the words I write,
not the respect or glory
they might earn,
not the admiration of others,
not about feeding
my vanity and ego,
He is what is truly important,
He is my King and Lord,
serving Him is where
my true joy lies,
glorifying His name
is all that matters.

There will be more words,
there will be other moments
piled upon moments,
like sheets of ice
during a Lake Michigan
winter storm,
forming vast mounds
of forgotten dreams,
full of dramatic melodramas,
they will fade
like the setting evening sun,
but the Lord shall be forever,
His kingdom will shine
for all eternity;

He is my backup,
He is my guarantee.
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