All That Matters Now

once I could do things

most people only dream of,

I could run with the wind,

move like a cat,

hit 90 mph fastballs,

I had strength,

I had power,

things most know

nothing about,

I took it for granted,

I thought it would last forever;

now it is all gone;

now I struggle just to move,

I fight for every breath,

I strain to hold on,

I live for the next meal,

my stomach aches with every bite,

I long for the past;

I search for a way out;

life is not fair,

it does not provide justice

one way or the other,

some have more,

some have less,

some have nothing at all;

there is no guarantee,

there is no certainty,

there is no balance;

life is an illusion;

it does not matter now,

it has come,

it has gone,

all that matters now

is what comes next;

all that matters now

is You.

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