This One's For You Scott

Now listen, you rich people, weep and wail because of the misery that is coming on you. Your wealth has rotted, and moths have eaten your clothes. Your gold and silver are corroded. Their corrosion will testify against you and eat your flesh like fire. You have hoarded wealth in the last days. Look! The wages you failed to pay the workers who mowed your fields are crying out against you. The cries of the harvesters have reached the ears of the Lord Almighty. You have lived on earth in luxury and self-indulgence. You have fattened yourselves in the day of slaughter. You have condemned and murdered the innocent one, who was not opposing you.   James 5:1-6

had a meeting today

with all the big boys,

it made me realize

just how small

I really am,

I sat there a long time

after that meeting,

staring at the pages

of an open tech manual;

I thought about a good friend I knew once,

I thought about the times

we got falling down drunk together,

laughing our asses off, and

how I loved him like the brother I never had,

I thought about how he sat in his car

in the parking lot of the navy prototype,

in upstate New York,

put a gun to his chest;

and pulled the trigger;

I thought about what he must have felt,

all the things which went through his head

in those last few seconds;

and now I knew;

now I knew what it felt like

to have your soul raped

and be powerless to prevent it;

fuck all the big boys everywhere,

they got it all covered,

they always do,

but they ain’t gonna take me,

they never will,

no matter how much shit they pile on,

if you wait long enough,

even this passes,

just like everything else;

this one’s for you Scott.

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