Sitting in a Mall While Growing Old

“For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.  What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?”   Matthew 16:25-26

“The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life.”   John 12:25

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he as done has been done through God.”   John 3:16-21

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”   John 16:33

it’s not easy growing old,

but then again, it’s not so bad either,

there’s a calm sort of peace,

sitting on a bench in the middle of the mall,

drinking a cup of coffee,

watching people pass you by;

knowing that it will soon be

all over;

you start to see the ego and pride in it all,

for the first time, you begin to understand

the futility;

and it’s just not so bad;

the curtain is pulled back, the illusion disappears,

the Holy Spirit speaks,

and you realize nothing of this world matters,

that everything is temporary,

everything is changing,

yet everything remains the same,

all the selfishness, pride, ego, emotions,

feelings, lust, fear, anger, frustrations, greed,

just self-absorbed hypocrisy,

coming and going, growing and dying,

fading with each moment of passing time;

that there is a truth much larger than life or death;

we fail because we choose to fail,

drowning in the madness,

running from the light,

blaming it on destiny,

making friends with the prince of this world,

wallowing in self-pity,

crying at the hopelessness,

preferring the darkness,

hiding from the truth;

we fail because we choose to fail;

without Jesus there is nothing,

He is the vine, we are the branches,

the beginning and the end,

the Alpha and the Omega,

the great I am,

the Truth, the Light and the Way,

through Him do all things exist,

through Him are all things possible,

no man cometh to the Father but through Him;

praise His holy name forever!

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