Decisions on a Day Off (from Lifesongs 4)

Woke up this morning;

decided whether to shoot up
or not;

decided whether to be a killer
or not;

decided whether to become a bum
or not;

decided whether to be a rapist
or not;

decided whether to be a hero
or not;

decided whether to quit my job
or not;

then I took a shower,
ate breakfast,
washed the car,
drank some tea,
played video games,
watched some tv,
did some grocery shopping
and wondered;

if I’d made the right
choices.

Woke up this morning
searching for a place
that isn’t for anyone
but me,
somewhere
where decisions

don’t make a difference.
.
.