Sunday, September 11, 2016

sometimes now



















“tell me Gilbarto,”
she whispered in my ear
on a warm sunny morning,
as we lay together,
her body resting
softly in my arms,
“what is the price to be paid,
for simple existence,
in a world
that demands more?”
“so much more;”
we both knew our time
had almost passed,
as all time passes
in a world ruled by time,
but still we clung to one another,
hoping silently inside,
that maybe,
just maybe,
this would be the one
that would not pass,
even though we both knew
it would;
I thought on her question,
and decided there was no answer,
that it was as open ended
as the tomorrow
we both would face,
I thought of my life,
where it had been,
where it was going,
what it had learned,
and came to the conclusion
that it too
had no answers,
a mass of swirling contradictions,
neither beginning or ending,
drifting like the current
with no known destination;
I thought of His life,
so perfect and pure,
His words,
so simple,
yet so strong,
sharp crystal truth,
far beyond the boundaries
of our limited human comprehension;
He is the king
of us all;
I pulled her closer,
stroked her hair with my hand,
tomorrow she would board a bus,
and her and I
would be no more,
but today
we were one,
even if it was just a moment;
sometimes now
has to do,
in a world where tomorrow
never comes.
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Thursday, September 8, 2016

The Face of True Evil/Prepare Yourself























Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake. And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another. And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many. And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold. But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.   Matthew 24:9-13
I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?”   Luke 18:8
true evil has no face,
it shifts and moves,
swaying back and forth,
like grains of desert sand
in a gently blowing wind,
quietly infiltrating its way
into minds and souls, in high
and mighty places,
enticing, alluring;
irresistible;
the ultimate chameleon,
making changes so subtle
they are barely perceptible;
deception in the name
of innocence;
taking shape without
worry or care,
then disappearing like magic,
into the thin night air;
yes,
true evil has no face,
it goes by many names;
eminent domain,
manifest destiny,
for god and country,
true religion,
the chosen race,
national pride,
the final solution,
genocide;
to name a few;
and when it has come and gone,
none but a few even realize
it has passed their way
at all;
the time is coming,
when everything you think
you know,
everything you believe
to be true will be
challenged,
turned upside down;
the world,
technology,
science,
reality,
your eyes,
your ears,
even your very mind,
will tell you that
what you believe cannot
possibly be true,
deceiving even the elect,
if that were possible;
will you still have faith?
what is right will be wrong,
what is up will be down,
what is righteous will be evil;
when they torture and kill,
they’ll believe they are
doing God’s work;
“prepare yourself” sayeth the Lord.
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Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Next


























“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”   Matthew 14:28-33
one more lesson,
one more obstacle,
one more weakness,
one more time, I begin
to sink below the surface;
once again, You grasp
my hand,
once again, You pull
me from the depths,
once again, You teach me
to overcome,
once again, Your power sets
me free;
the world continues on,
wars and rumors of wars,
death and destruction,
joy and laughter,
greed and self-satisfaction,
vanity and pride;
none of that matters now,
the flesh slowly dies,
only a fading mist,
a disappearing shadow,
I am finished with it all,
there is nothing more
I need,
there is nothing more
I want,
all that matters now is
what comes next,
all that matters now,
is You.
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Monday, September 5, 2016

In The End


















Jesus looked directly at them and asked, “Then what is the meaning of that which is written: ‘The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone’? Everyone who falls on that stone will be broken to pieces, but he on whom it falls will be crushed.”  Luke 20:17-18
when I was 18, I was the real deal,
the high school, jock, superstar,
the golden boy
with the golden touch,
class president,
everything to everyone;
it was an image
I spent most of my adolescent years
perfecting;
I could have married the hometown girl,
bought a house in my parents neighborhood,
spent the next 30 or 40 years
making a comfortable living,
gathering after work at the local bar
with all the other hometown boys,
living off old press clippings
and exaggerated sexual conquests,
collecting interest on Friday night touchdowns
and Saturday morning hangovers;
instead I did everything I could
to kill who and what I was;
I wandered,
I searched,
I smoked,
I drank,
I snorted,
I embarrassed,
I lied,
I deceived,
I failed;
I burned every bridge,
I slept with whores,
I broke man-made laws
and spiritual taboos,
I sinned against man,
I sinned against God;
but in the end,
I was still here,
stuck in the same skin,
unable to escape,
unable to change,
unable to be anything
but what I was,
trapped by the truth
living inside;
in the end,
I became exactly
what I was destined to be,
and You were still there;
knocking,
whispering,
waiting;
in the end,
You put Your arms around me,
quietly whispering:
“Don’t be afraid, just believe”
forgiving the beatings,
forgiving the humiliation,
forgiving the suffering,
forgiving the pain,
forgiving the torture,
forgiving the isolation,
endured by You,
for the evil committed by me;
in the end,
You forgave the sins
of a world not worthy
to kiss the dust beneath Your feet;
in the end,
You shined Your light before me
and my eyes were blind no more;
in the end,
I will stand before the throne of Your glory
and the joy shall be forever.
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Inflexibility





















truth is not always the answer,
some things are better left unsaid,
otherwise,
it is just too painful;
yet,
somehow we made it
to this land of middle age,
do you think it was the result of experience?
or simply an unfortunate side effect of
circumstance?
in the end,
we will slide away
like ghosts in the night,
with only faded memories
to light the way
and who will be the wiser?
you?
me?
I think not;
inflexibility,
is sometimes a blessing in disguise,
when faced with rigid decisions,
which call out with lascivious options,
somewhere in the middle
of this inept comedy.
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New Hope


























walking around this place,
I feel the words stirring within,
as the late afternoon dusk begins to ascend;
a sign in front of a coffee/snack bar announces,
‘Exotic Drinks Inside’ and I quietly wonder if this means
they will strip for dollar bills,
I see tomato pies on bridge street and fight the temptation
to go inside and ask for a polite junkie,
inside new gypsies, there is a warning sign informing patrons
they do not cater to practitioners of  black magick;
only good witches live here;
my wife points out an American flag,
with an image of Morrison in the middle,
I start go in to ask about the price,
but then decide not too,
somehow I don’t think he’d approve of the
commercialism of it all,
but then who knows,
if he were alive today,
perhaps he’d be doing ads for american express,
and singing light my fire in Las Vegas for a
cavalcade of golden oldies extravaganza;
old age and money
have a way of doing those things;
then the thought occurs,
don’t you think he knew that?
isn’t that why in the end,
he chose death over selling out;
later, inside a little strip mall,
bodily functions call out,
only to find out it will cost me a quarter, so
I pay the lady guarding the door,
then proceed to take a thirty minute dump,
I smile at the guard lady on the way out
as she angrily glares back;
it was the best damn quarter
I ever spent.
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The Cost of Admission


















I gave in,
most do,
choosing life
over living,
walking down
lighted streets,
instead of dark,
wooden corridors;
I have seen
the two penny circus,
I have heard
the heavenly music
of gods
and beggars,
I know
the secrets
of ancient poets
and scholarly sages;
the hour grows weary,
it does not wait,
nor does it give,
it does not seek,
nor does it receive;
choices made,
knowledge discovered,
the final destination,
and in the end,
it is not ours
to choose,
it is not ours
to lose,
player or spectator,
the price remains the same;
it is only for us
to pay the cost
of admission.
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